How does one fathom quitting everything to go see the world? IT IS SO OVERWHELMING!
How do we even begin to figure out where to go, where to stay, how much is reasonable to spend, when to go where...........ahhh so much to think about. I feel nervous, excited, scared, impatient....So much to think about and it's so hard to focus on anything else.
I'm trying really hard to live in the moment. I know so many people who live entirely in the future. I don't want to do that, I want to experience my life and it's joys, as they stand, today....but it's SO hard when you have one-way tickets out of the country BOOKED! Haha! Honestly though, I've caught myself in moments, not constantly, but sometimes, where I realize everything bringing me joy lives in the future. My fear is seeking something and putting so much hope in it, then attaining it...and not being grateful because I'm already over it, wanting something else. It reminds me of a quote from Sex and the City when Carrie says "Sometimes when you get your needs met, you just don't need them anymore". And my how that happens. But sometimes we confuse our wants with the underlying need, which becomes ignored, and all of these little wants we set our sights on are unsuccessful attempts at filling whatever void it is that needs to be filled. Ramble much? Perhaps, but it's currently what I am thinking about.
