It's Already February?

Time has flown by. It's crazy! In 'A Severe Mercy', the author makes a really interesting point about the concept that we were designed as eternal beings. In his letters with the great C.S. Lewis, they discuss the strange reality that as humans we always feel so aware of time, "how it flies by" and how nostalgic we get about the great times that always feel too short. Why, they ask, do we feel as though time is short, if that is all we've ever known? How are we able to long for more time, if we've never known it to be another way? Interesting argument for creation. And I find it to be very true. Based on my beliefs, its because we were meant to live for eternity with our creator. Every Sunday I feel as though the weekend was much too short, and dread the week ahead before the next weekend to come. On that note, I am really excited for this weekend. It is me and Matt's two year dating anniversary. He has something up his sleeve which I am not aware of but I am very much looking forward to it. He's taking on Friday night, and I got us tickets to see Iranian comedian Maz Jobrani do stand up comedy on Saturday night. Should be a great weekend!!

Gotta Have It...Part 1

Youngblood Loose Mineral Powder

Benefit Bad Gal Lash

Boeger Barbera

High Pumps
(These are Christian Louboutins that I can only dream about)

Feeling Good Already

It's amazing how much just following through with plans or hopes can make you feel awesome. Tonight I spent time with my bestie volunteering at an emergency housing shelter, where we helped out with the all of the children while the parents were in mandatory classes. Volunteering is something that I've been wanting to do for a long time, but had a hard time finding something that worked with my schedule. Now, I've found something I can commit to once a week and I had a great first night. I left with mixed emotions, it's definitely hard knowing the situations of these children and the circumstances of which I was in their presence, but there's nothing like the joy that a child can bring. And tonight we were surrounded by a ton of them!! SO looking forward to tomorrow...a nice workout, some long awaited time with my boyfriend, and the weekend ahead!

What the heck am I going to blog about?

I am not a writer. I think that I felt a blog would be an awesome idea because I just watched Julie & Julia and it seemed so doable. But I forget Julie Powell was actually a talented writer, and as my last two posts show, I am not. But I did decide to do this and per the current theme of my life I am determined to keep trying. So maybe where I went wrong last night was that at the very end of the day, right before bed, I thought I'd be able to sit down and reflect on my day with some great insight. But in reality my brain was fried at that point and I honestly couldn't think of a single interesting thing to say. My new idea is that I will try to update this throughout the day, as much as work will permit, whenever I feel I have something interesting (ish) to say. So...we shall see.

Day Two: Action

So I successfully managed to get out of bed at 5:15, make it to the gym AND study after work even though I got off at 7... I must say it felt pretty awesome getting my workout done first thing in the morning. However, tomorrow is only Wednesday...sigh.

Day One: Accountability (Updated)

Today I decided I have to set a plan of action to make the changes that I keep talking about in my life but that somehow keep getting delayed or amended. You see, I graduated college 3 years ago at the lovely age of 22. I thought a degree in Finance would grant me a life of success and that's about as far as my thought process went. And here I am, working at a lucrative private equity firm, making more money than most my peers- not enjoying the career side of my life at all. How was I supposed to know what I wanted to do with my life straight out of high school, with no real life experience? Enough said there. Now that I have the most amazing man a girl could ask for, I see the life that I want. It involves a family, a humble abode, and amazing life experiences. Cliche as it is, I want to make a difference in this world, I want to be the best mom and wife a woman can be, and I want to see as much as I can see in this lifetime. Oh and I also want to get fit by this summer....so I have a strict new regime that I need to stick to and for some reason I think a blog may be a way to help me do that. Not that I think a single human other than myself or possibly a loved one that I force this upon will read this but JUST in case one does, maybe, just maybe- that will move me along this path. So, for the next few months, at least until I take the CSET in May, I am forcing myself to adhere to this schedule, of course with some room for unavoidable changes:

Sun: Church, Mom time, chores, gym, coffee with a friend perhaps, study
Mon/Wed: Gym 5:15 AM, work 7:30 AM-5:45 PM, refresher class 6:25-7:45, study 8-9
Tues: Gym 5:15 AM, work 7:30-6, Volunteer 6:30-8, LOST with my bestie!
Thurs: Gym 5:15 AM, work 7:30-5:45 PM,

Fri: Gym 5:15 AM, work 7:30- 6 PM, Gym, Dinner with my man...relax :)
Sat: the one day my man and I have fully cooperative schedules, so this is our day to go running and study together.... do our groceries....spend time with our friends or families

No, most of this does not sound fun but it is doable and quite possibly the only way that I can work enough hours to make my employer happy AND work on my fitness AND study. If I slack on any of these things any longer, I think I may have a quarter-life crisis.